Makenzie – Forever 18


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Birthday Cake Nose

I don’t remember where I read it and I don’t remember why.  But somewhere in my scanning of some random article, a mom was talking about her children – of which she bore three.  What caught my attention was how she listed the names and ages of her kids.  “Alex – 22, Molly – 24, Andrew – forever 18.”

Reading Andrew’s listing stirred up in me a Makenzie moment.  I paused.  Knowing what she meant and wondering the details of the back-story.  I wondered how he died and if he led a full life.

Today, ‘forever 18’ strikes me especially hard.  My Makenzie’s birthday.  She would have been 22 but is ‘forever 18’.  She would have been in college, maybe had a boyfriend and maybe would have come home to celebrate with us.  Lot’s of maybe’s, silenced by reality.  She doesn’t have any more birthday’s.  She is ‘forever 18.’

What I wouldn’t give to bake her a cake today.  What I wouldn’t do to see her play along with my old joke of putting re-lighting candles on it.  (She would always pretend to be surprised that the candles wouldn’t blow out – but she knew).  What I wouldn’t give to hug her bear-like, kiss her forehead and whisper “Happy Birthday, Kenz”  only to hear back “Thanks daddy.  I love you.”

Today as I sit in the quiet of my writing room, look up to see her pictured face and finger a bobby-pin found underneath my coffee mug, I am simply grateful that the “forever” in her “forever 18” is spent at the side of God.  He knows what He’s doing.  He has granted her a “forever” that is filled with joy. He has given her a life that is above any she experienced while with me.  He has graced her with a fullness that I too will know.  My Makenzie’s “forever” is with her Savior Jesus and I cannot be more grateful.

Happy Birthday, button-nose.  Forever-18.

Peace!

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  1. Beautiful Todd…even though we can only get a glimpse of the love, and ache, in your heart for your wonderful daughter

  2. I love that forever. My daughter is forever 19, but would have turned 40 on April 13. A very close friend of hers sent me a beautiful bellarina BD card to Tammy,and just last night I gave a young senior in hightschool a schlorship in memory of Tammy. What an honor to do that, since this young lady has danced since age of 3, just like Tammy Makenzie:] They are dancing with our Father in Heaven. Nancy in SD

  3. For the peace you have brought today…”Forever” is why we live with faith, knowledge and grace of knowing Heaven is in our future. Dance Makenzie Dance!

    Blessings and Peace on this bittersweet day!

  4. Thank you Pastor Todd.  As I see through the tears I feel the joy of knowing she is dancing

  5. I have a nephew who is “forever 14”.  God bless you.
    Candace BettendorfGod is our refuge and strength. Psalm 46:1.— comment-reply@wordpress.com wrote:From: Todd Stocker’s Blog <comment-reply@wordpress.com>To: candyrae@dishup.usSubject: [New post] Makenzie – Forever 18Date: Fri, 3 May 2013 11:30:37 +0000

    Todd posted: ” I don’t remember where I read it and I don’t remember why.  But somewhere in my scanning of some random article, a mom was talking about her children – of which she bore three.  What caught my attention was how she listed the names and ages of her kid”

  6. body{font-size:10pt;font-family:arial,sans-serif;background-color:#ffffff;color:black;}p{margin:0px;}That is so precious, Todd.   My sister’s first child, a son, is forever “two”.  If he were living he’d be 38.  I’m very thankful that my sister and brother in law are believers.  That makes everything a bit easier.Lynn

  7. Awesome story. I really appreciate hearing your story and it makes me grateful for the blessings in my life. I am sorry for your pain but glad to hear that you take comfort in knowing your daughter is with our Lord. Blessings to you and your family on this memorial of a day.

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