I want a divorce.
I’ve been married to you for far too long. You control me. You run my life and I have no freedom. When I want to go one way you force me to go another. When I want something better, you pull me back down. When I want to help, give, support and love, you weave your way into the fabric of my generosity.
And so, I am leaving you behind. I know you will chase me. I know you will want to stay with me but I will have it no longer. I am seeking to be made new, washed clean and given life.
You are known by many names and given to fits of darkness. And so, Pride, I am divorcing you. Self-centerdness, you are moving out. Hopelessness, Depression and Grief, you and I are parting ways. I have found a new love. Someone that makes me come alive. Someone that stitches Joy and Humility together to cover me in a blanket of Love. Someone who gives me Freedom that comes from Heaven and opens up a vast new territory of Peace.
Her name is Grace. Birthed from the heart of my Savior, Jesus. Given as a gift unending. Not earned, waged or demanded, but poured out to me despite of me. A forever lover through whom I live forever. Joy is mine. Hope is mine. Love is now mine.