My Makenzie Monsoon

A few hours before dark, eight years ago today, my Makenzie left.  She wasn’t sure she wanted to go but the lure of a ballerina photo shoot was too strong to resist.  I was sitting at my computer in our little office by the back door as she leaned over and gave me a kiss … Continue reading My Makenzie Monsoon


Seven Years Afloat: Makenzie Home-going Anniversary – Todd

Seven years ago, I thought my anchor gave way.  My life’s-boat was set a drift in a storm called “the death of a child” when my oldest daughter, Makenzie, was killed in traffic accident. Yet what I found was my anchor was more secure than ever.  The pain, the grief, the emptiness and the heartbreak were … Continue reading Seven Years Afloat: Makenzie Home-going Anniversary – Todd

043: SPECIAL: Celebrating Makenzie’s Last Birthday [Podcast] – Todd

May 3rd is my Makenzie's birthday.  She only saw 18 of them before she was killed in a car accident.  Here are my thoughts on this day. Free Resource: "Helping Those Who've Lost A Loved One" It was her last birthday but none of us knew it.  In life you never do.  Yet deep down, … Continue reading 043: SPECIAL: Celebrating Makenzie’s Last Birthday [Podcast] – Todd


They didn’t know each other and we didn’t know her.  Yet last Friday, we all connected. I opened up my email and saw one sent from, “Quinn.”  I don’t know any one bearing that name.  Spam had spammed me I thought.  As is my habit on these junky occasions, I hovered my cursor and right clicked … Continue reading LIFE IMPACT: MAKENZIE AND QUINN

Makenzie: Five Times Now, Today.

I’m up earlier than normal again.  The last few weeks have stolen hours of sleep from me, most likely because of today. Five times now, I’ve endured the turning of this calendar page without my oldest daughter Makenzie.  Five times now, this day has kept me from work, from happiness and from others.  Five times … Continue reading Makenzie: Five Times Now, Today.

Makenzie: Five Years Old

Today is my ‘oldest’ daughters birthday.  There won’t be presents.  There won’t be cake.  You won’t find our family all together dining at her favorite restaurant or sharing stories of past celebrations around the table. Makenzie has graduated from all of that.  Her final birthday celebration was five years ago today, a month before she died. … Continue reading Makenzie: Five Years Old

A Thank You to Facebook

Facebook.  Good-to-do’s call it a time sucker and tramp.  Others call it a stalker’s paradise and a bullies playground. Today, I take another tack.  Today, I am thankful for the online service of Facebook because Mark Z. has done something for our family that no other venue has done.  They recorded a piece of my daughters life … Continue reading A Thank You to Facebook

Her Name is Makenzie

In the corner of a coffee shop, I frantically type out my blurry thoughts, trying to meet imposed deadlines for publication.  When writing, I usually enter another world and am able to block out the bustling sounds of the grinding coffee machine, chatter from patrons and the light jazzy style music that drips from the … Continue reading Her Name is Makenzie


I’m sitting at Starbucks on a drizzly early morning.  Normally, I’m at Caribou Coffee but nothing seems normal this morning.  Why?  Because my mind is connecting in strange ways today.  You see, when my oldest daughter was killed a few years back she was 18 years and 1 month old.  Too young to die.  Too … Continue reading LOSING A CHILD REWIRES MY BRAIN